I recently celebrated a birthday on Valentine's Day. Another quick year come and gone and another twelve months of becoming a stronger person.
I typically reflect on my birthday to see if I am on the right track. This particular birthday due to more challenging times I looked a little deeper. Looking at my job as a Client Success Manager I have so many more big goals to achieve but I am so grateful for a job I love. I am eager to dive into some bigger and more challenging work projects in 2020. On a personal basis with how I treat myself I still have big mountains to climb. I struggle at getting older and fear I am never going to be at that happy place especially lately but that's what drives me to keep moving. I want to start training for another marathon very soon as I miss the rush of those long runs. In addition to running I have been trying to get into a free weight program but I just can't seem to get into a good routine. The gym doesn't work into my schedule and the gyms around here are not my thing and not my people. I am hoping I can find something that works for me this month so I can start working on my summer body.
My kids drive me to be a better Mom. I have certainly made some wrong decisions and not acted on gut instincts but I made a promise I won't let that happen again. Sometimes you need to come to a sudden stop and make serious changes to make things better. We all make mistakes but how we act on our mistakes is what truly speaks to our character. It's ok to be selfish sometimes and only worry about the people under your roof. Some people don't understand that because they are not living in your shoes but these are things I plan to do like it or not.
I want to speak up, write a book and educate on some hard and scary issues. Issues most people turn their heads too. There are so many things we can teach our youth from our own life experiences you just can't be afraid to do it. I am often told to keep quiet and stay private. But what if I have something to say that could help someone else? I got a text message from a younger girl I got to know when she was going through High-School. She wished me a Happy Birthday and said "she hopes to become half the woman I am one day." I sat down and wondered why she thought that seeing as I have made so many serious mistakes. It got me thinking that no matter what you do people are watching and you can be an inspiration even when you don't believe you are.
So for most people a birthday is a day to celebrate and have fun. For me it's more thoughts, more goals and more reflecting. So good to be back blogging after a month of crazy.
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